I really dont.

i’m sorry if I am and all buuut.

how about everyone stfu and maybe talk to me? :D

thanks a bunch assholes.

so today started out really shitty.

tyler gives me rides to shool now and I was running late, and of all things I left my phone on the counter, so we had to go back and get it,   which almost made us late. strike one. 
there was this gay sophmore meeting during my ART class, strike two.  
my leg started hurting really fucking bad during chem for no reason at all, strike three.
and if that werent enough, I had to go to the nurse, which I hate to do anyway but my grandpa ended up taking me motrin beause apparently its illeagal to have or some shit. the nurse wrote me an excuse so I wouldnt  have to participate during PE, but my bitch of a dance teacher was all like oh no I cant give you credit for today or whatever and.. omg that was so messed up but anyways. 

today ended up being okay. 

I hung out at tyler’s for awhile and he made it all better… I love that kid I swear. more than anything. he’s so amazing words cant begin to describe. c: after about an hour there, we went to the verizon store to try and return his phone (we didnt succeed though) then we went back to his house to see his dog… i feel so sorry for it because it JUST got fixed and everything… :/
then we went to dinner at plaza and he read my tarot, which was cool because it turned out perfect… just like the runes did. it makes me feel better about us. I know its not to be taken too seriously, but when something like that turns out that great its amazing. We went to yorktown after that and watched the sunset… so perfect day ftw?  I think so.

  
 and im rambling. 

take my keyboard away from me.

No, I did not fall off the face of the earth on that amping trip. (:

so this morning I happened to get up at three so I was like, oh, what should I do?

and everyone has a blog you know, and then I thought… oh snap, I have a blog! o.o
so yeah, it’ almost four now.

in my absence, life has been… amazing. (:

I go to the ville now annnnd the people there are great. the building needs some work though, its falling apart. o.o This year, theres no more skipping, drugs or cigarettes, and I think it’ll be just fine, thank you (:
  theres this really amazing kid that walks me to class everyday, annnd the girl who got us together isnt a b anymore at all. she’s changed and i’m proud of her.  she is also in my homeroom of all people, ahah. 
so yeah he and I are going to see pineapple express this weekend. i’m excited. Im also going to a concert this weekend. not nessacarily in that order, but its going to be great.

annd my dad’s oming up tonight. we’re going to go out to eat at an undisclosed location and maybe the mall in norfolk as well. like I need more clothes right? but muuuuuueeeemmm, its H&M!   

In other news; i’m at brittany’s right now. we’re about to leave and go camping, so yeah. fun!

actually, Idont mind camping at all. the last time I went camping I ended up walking 20 miles, so this is pretty much pansy stuff… and we’re bringing excessive amounts of food. Yum.

anyways. so I got my car… It’s amazing to think i’m the owner of a two ton heap of metal. but it’s a nice two ton heap of metal… its amazing in fact. and its this greenish teal color and its basically the most awesome thing ever. yayy! annd ive driven it… the gas pedal’s a little touchy but i’ll get used to it I guess. it drives… and plays cds.

so now I have a youtube. ohhhh snap. you should check it. hahahahaha its stuff Ido when i’m bored and whatever so basically its lame but yeah. you should.

AND MY HAIRZ ARE RED

It’s been awhile, I know. Haha. Anyways, happy late fourth! I spent most of mine on my couch with mom, watching movies and being really annoyed with the kids shooting fireworks off next door. Yeah, I know we’re really lame, but can you blame us when we were sitting in front of our bigass picture window? ugh. I’ve been a little more phobic then usual lately, which is kind of strange. Maybe it’s the law and order reruns.

The newest thing is our sewing machine… we’ve had it for years but my mom and I just decided to bring it out now and take a gander at it. oooh, its pretty and amazingg. our cat keeps sitting on it though, like she does with everything else. She really likes to be the center of attention. hahaha. (:

sooo, my car gets here in five days… and needless to say, i’m excited.
Ooooh, and it’s for real this time. too bad I cant drive it for another 24 days. :/ well, legally. heheh.
I’ve decided on ‘oh snap’ for a plate. what do you think? yeah, I always say it, so. It’ll make people like my mom and I smile. a lot. hahaha. (ive just noticed, I’ve been hanging out with my mom a lot. wow)

I really need money, as I owe money out the ass. dude, i’m brokee. preferably before I get my lisence I want a job, but since I get my snakebites on my birthday there’s like NO WAY i’m getting a job before they heal.  DAYUM, if I only got them this summer.  it would make life so much easier.  I need gas money.

AND I NEED A FUCKING RIDE TO WARPEDFSDGFHFSGHDFGHRSYT.  if you  know anyone, or you could take me,  THAT WOULD BE AMAZING AND I WOULD PAY YOU. def.
please, that’s the only way i’d be able to go. fffuck.
I think that’s really it.
nothing at all’s really been going on.

toodles. <3

sooo i’ve been away from the computer lately.

well no, just away from the blog. I apologise D:

I’ve been busy with myspace and the countless other things I do on the interwebz.
ughh. I need to learn how to balance this, forrealz.
anyways, I have new hairrr. its ’sceneish’ i guess. lawlz, but I like it, so fuuuuuuck you haters.
I tried to coontail my bangs last night but it didnt work that well.

I’ve decided;

IN: Big hair, V for vendetta, burger king, combs, screamo, coontails, peace signs, bows, texting, earbuds

OUT: Dairy Queen, Chores, Brushes, headphones, summer, heat, the house, being fucking fifteen.

ohh, annd I’m getting a 3OH!3 shirt.
Megan’s verrrry excited. (:

anyways. drop me a line.

From here on out, no more illegal substances.

No more being a total lazyass.

No more lameshit drama.

I need to make my life matter.

:3

better person, FTW.

Is such an amazing organization. You should check it out-(twloha.com)- it’s mission is to spread love and hope among people suffering from depression. (Yeah I know, a lot of people have been going WTF is that)

I ended up joining the street team, and buying a shirt. Everyone’s really nice there, that amazed me… and now I have something semi-constructive to do (yay!).  So far I think it’s the best thing I’ve done in awhile.
I really believe in what they are doing (for those who dont know) because I tried to kill myself in march. I know what rock bottom feels like, and no one should have to be there. It’s a terrible place to be… but now i’m in a waaaay better place in life  and I kind of want to spread the word that it is, in fact, possible.

anything is. <3

I’m going to dye my hair again.

Nothing interesting to report, really.

the car’s coming next week.

Leviathan started shedding yesterday.

and; apparently nutmeg’s a drug when you take a lot of it… I think I might try that sometime. XD

ahh, i’m tired, and have to piss.

and this is a complete waste of post;

NIGHT.